- get up (well, hit snooze 3-4 times and then get up)
- wake Nathan and get him started with breakfast
- take a shower before Grace gets up and is unsupervised
- dress ( wearing scrubs every day makes this a very quick process)
- wake Grace and get her fed
- make sure Nathan brushes his teeth and has his backpack at the ready before his Gran comes to pick him up for school
- clean breakfast from Grace's face and hands
- dress Grace (it's the brushing of the teeth that I really dread)
- pack Grace's lunch
- rush out the door to drop her off at church
- head to work
I long for the day that I don't have to be at a job outside the house. I want to let the kids sleep past 6 am on weekdays and have the time to cook hot breakfast for them. I want to take Nathan to school myself and not have daycare workers spend more time with Grace then I do. I want to keep my house spotless and have time to work in the yard. I want to have hot cookies and cold milk waiting for Nathan when he gets home from school and sit and hear about his day. I want to have a fully prepared meal on the table every night when Trevor gets home. I guess what I really want is to be a 1950's housewife, but I don't care if people think that's silly. I want to care for my family in a way that only I can, and it's is a gift that I can give them every day.
But what I want doesn't line up with regard to what we need in terms of my income. So, I have to keep up the morning grind until that day comes that I can do things the way I want. There are plans in place to make that happen sometime in the future, but for now I will have to make the best of the situation for what it is. My life is happening right now and spending all of my time longing for something else is a complete waste of the one I'm living.
So, I'll keep finding the little joys where I least expect them and thank God for the life that he has given me. After all, we only get one go around and I don't want to waste it!