Have I recently mentioned that I am not a morning person? I'm not a morning person when I wake up at my normal time of 6 or 6:30. I am most definitely not a morning person at 5 am.
But this is when I have to drag myself out of bed to have my quiet time. Because, you know, one of the qualifications of quiet time is that it's actually quiet while you're doing it. The cacophony of two children getting ready for school/the babysitter is hardly conducive to studying the Word and prayer!
I renewed my pledge to have a consistent quiet time last September. You can read here and here about my experience. According to my journal and blog entries, that commitment lasted all of about 2 months. The holidays arrived with all of the extra stuff to do and my quiet time was the first thing to be pushed to the side. I am here to report that my family noticed it. They couldn't have put their finger on it exactly, but the quiet and gentle spirit that I was praying for during my time alone with God went away with the disappearance of the special time set aside for just the two of us.
I felt more stressed and I was less patient with Trevor and the kids. I felt a disconnect at church and with my friends. Coincidence? I think not. My prayer life was in shambles and I felt so out of touch with God in a very personal way. The longer I rebelled, the worse I felt about myself and my life in general. Never mind the guilt and stress of commenting on all of my favorite blogs as though I had it completely together in all areas. In case you were wondering, smugness is not a fruit of the spirit.
Monday I decided to pick myself up and dust off the dirt the world is always leaving on me, and begin my quiet time. I'm pretty sure this won't be the last time that I have to start over, but praise God, I'm doing it! I have felt such a peace this week, and I know that starting my day in the Word and prayer is the reason. My heart (and my head) knows that I need this. I covet this time alone with God and know that I will be renewed each morning, but I really struggle with my faithfulness.
So, how do you guys stay faithful in your quiet time each day? I'm so tired of feeling like I've failed over and over again. I would love to hear your thoughts and ideas about how to maintain the motivation to stick with it.